1. In the excitement and anticipation of Daddy coming home, Phoebe was a little angel. Actually, she's an angel every day, but sometimes she temporarily misplaces her halo.
2. I got a call with some good news this morning concerning one of the "issues" we have been dealing with. Then I found out that the final book in the series I'm reading came in to the library today. Can't wait to read it and see how it all ends!
3. A friend from church texted me this afternoon to tell me she was at the beach, and would I like to take a break and drop Phoebe off to play with her daughter? WOULD I?? Um, yes please.
4. The weather around here is on the cusp of change. Well, I won't be sporting turtlenecks or anything, but the tradewinds have kicked up and it feels as though we are moving a few millimeters closer to the idea of fall and winter. The tourists won't have as many "perfect" beach days, but I am kind of digging the overcast look once in a while.
5. Opened up my email to find several messages from some of you ladies regarding my last post. I love you all dearly and am so thankful to have you identifying with me in this walk of life, whether it be through the meadow or through the mud! I think I must add a little P.S. to this previous post...
(P.S. Despite the stomach-churning, face-clenching, unpredictable swinging and swaying, we still got off the ride smiling...laughing, in fact. We do so enjoy an adventure! )
6. Picked up Daddy from the airport! Woo-hoo! I must state clearly here that I am NOT cut out for single parenthood (who is?). Though I did relish in the glory of hearing my daughter declare every day, with squeals of delight, that it was "girls day". She is, afterall, my favorite girlfriend!
7. Last, but definitely not least, God is good. He sustains me every day. He loves me with a pure and everlasting love. And though life's circumstances may shift like the weather, He never changes. He never fails.
October 25, 2010
October 23, 2010
Riding the Wheel
Sometimes there is just no better therapy than writing for me. Tonight though, it was immersing myself in a tub of hot water, and then bathing in a sudden downpour of salty tears. It took me by surprise, yet I suppose in my current hormonal condition, it shouldn't have. But there it was. There I was, letting it all out.
Today was day seven of a travelling husband, and that compounded with a bunch of other stuff we have been dealing with...stuff I have not disclosed in this blog because, well, it isn't necessary...but real life stuff, nonetheless. And the joys and challenges of being a mommy, only weeks away from baby number two. In addition to the weight of guilt I felt as I recounted the numerous times I blew it with Phoebe today. Well, let's just say that my busy schedule as of lately has kept me in a crying drought...until tonight.
Have you ever been on California Adventure's Ferris wheel? From far away it doesn't look that big, but close up it is impressive. When you board the ride, they ask you if you want to be in a stable car or one that also glides and swings along its own course. Do you know what I'm talking about?
I remember riding this with Xee and Phoebe a couple years ago. Xee gets a bit squeamish on these things, but I've never been afraid of heights, so when they asked if we wanted the stable car, I, wanting the full experience of course, opted for the other one (you know...the unstable one), despite the ever-increasing size of Xee's brown eyes, glaring at me in disapproval and beckoning me to change my mind. Hey, if you're gonna ride it, go for the gusto, right?
Ah, what a thrill! The slow and steady glide up, up, up, was quite refreshing. You can see half the park from way up there. Not scary at all...But then, without warning, you take a turn for the edge of the rotation and suddenly your stomach is taking a plunge as the car quickly glides into a rotation of it's own. A rotation within the rotation. Oh, and the swinging!...In mid-air, a hundred feet above the ground!
Everything around you is blurry. You can no longer focus on the beauty of the park, but only the sound of your own screaming voice and the look of torture on your poor husband's face. You giggle, because it is still deliriously fun (also for the sake of your crying child) and endure this sensation (twice) and round the corner with a sigh of relief, thinking the ride has come to a stop...only to realize that this is just a slight pause to let more passengers on, and now they are taking you around, ALL the way around...AGAIN!
So tonight when I stepped foot into my soothing hot bath, I had been going around slowly, feeling the breeze, taking in the scenery, breathing steadily, and suddenly, without warning, I must have come to that point in the curve. The point where my car dipped into its own rotation, and caught me a bit off guard. Everything was blurry and I could only hear the sound of my own sobbing....
Then I heard a song in my head. An old Amy Grant song I haven't heard in years came flooding to my mind. A gift from God to my overwhelmed heart. The spinning stopped. A deep breath of relief. Thank you, Lord, for the words You gave to me.
When the weight of all my dreams
is resting heavy on my head
And the thoughtful words of help and hope
have all been nicely said
But I'm still hurting
wondering if I'll ever be the one I think I am
I think I am
Then You gently re-remind me
that you made me from the First
And the more I try to be the best
the more I get the worst
And I realize the good in me
is only there because of who You are
Who YOU are
And all I ever have to be
is what You've made me
Any more or less would be a step
out of Your plan
As You daily recreate me,
help me always keep in mind
That I only have to do
what I can find
All I ever have to be
All I have to be
All I ever have to be...
Is what You've made me
Today was day seven of a travelling husband, and that compounded with a bunch of other stuff we have been dealing with...stuff I have not disclosed in this blog because, well, it isn't necessary...but real life stuff, nonetheless. And the joys and challenges of being a mommy, only weeks away from baby number two. In addition to the weight of guilt I felt as I recounted the numerous times I blew it with Phoebe today. Well, let's just say that my busy schedule as of lately has kept me in a crying drought...until tonight.
Have you ever been on California Adventure's Ferris wheel? From far away it doesn't look that big, but close up it is impressive. When you board the ride, they ask you if you want to be in a stable car or one that also glides and swings along its own course. Do you know what I'm talking about?
I remember riding this with Xee and Phoebe a couple years ago. Xee gets a bit squeamish on these things, but I've never been afraid of heights, so when they asked if we wanted the stable car, I, wanting the full experience of course, opted for the other one (you know...the unstable one), despite the ever-increasing size of Xee's brown eyes, glaring at me in disapproval and beckoning me to change my mind. Hey, if you're gonna ride it, go for the gusto, right?
Ah, what a thrill! The slow and steady glide up, up, up, was quite refreshing. You can see half the park from way up there. Not scary at all...But then, without warning, you take a turn for the edge of the rotation and suddenly your stomach is taking a plunge as the car quickly glides into a rotation of it's own. A rotation within the rotation. Oh, and the swinging!...In mid-air, a hundred feet above the ground!
Everything around you is blurry. You can no longer focus on the beauty of the park, but only the sound of your own screaming voice and the look of torture on your poor husband's face. You giggle, because it is still deliriously fun (also for the sake of your crying child) and endure this sensation (twice) and round the corner with a sigh of relief, thinking the ride has come to a stop...only to realize that this is just a slight pause to let more passengers on, and now they are taking you around, ALL the way around...AGAIN!
So tonight when I stepped foot into my soothing hot bath, I had been going around slowly, feeling the breeze, taking in the scenery, breathing steadily, and suddenly, without warning, I must have come to that point in the curve. The point where my car dipped into its own rotation, and caught me a bit off guard. Everything was blurry and I could only hear the sound of my own sobbing....
Then I heard a song in my head. An old Amy Grant song I haven't heard in years came flooding to my mind. A gift from God to my overwhelmed heart. The spinning stopped. A deep breath of relief. Thank you, Lord, for the words You gave to me.
When the weight of all my dreams
is resting heavy on my head
And the thoughtful words of help and hope
have all been nicely said
But I'm still hurting
wondering if I'll ever be the one I think I am
I think I am
Then You gently re-remind me
that you made me from the First
And the more I try to be the best
the more I get the worst
And I realize the good in me
is only there because of who You are
Who YOU are
And all I ever have to be
is what You've made me
Any more or less would be a step
out of Your plan
As You daily recreate me,
help me always keep in mind
That I only have to do
what I can find
All I ever have to be
All I have to be
All I ever have to be...
Is what You've made me
October 19, 2010
Still Not Here
Well, I don't know if it is the laptop crashing, or the having to transfer over all of our pictures onto the desktop, or the multiple visits to our rental property, or could it be that I am pregnant? Well, for whatever reason, I just don't seem to have the time...or energy...or motivation to write these days. I so enjoy writing, but lately the desire for ice cream seems to take precedence. What can I say?
There are pictures I'd like to post. Eventually that may happen, if they ever make their way from the external drive to the desktop. Phew, I am just glad we didn't lose absolutely EVERYTHING that was saved on the laptop.
You'll hear from me again...some day!
There are pictures I'd like to post. Eventually that may happen, if they ever make their way from the external drive to the desktop. Phew, I am just glad we didn't lose absolutely EVERYTHING that was saved on the laptop.
You'll hear from me again...some day!
October 12, 2010
The Annual Review
Every year around Phoebe's birthday, we have made a musical slideshow of pictures that highlights our year with her. Well, Xee has made it. Some of you might remember the first two. Then year number three came along and I reminded Xee to start on it. I set aside the pictures I wanted in a file on my computer. A few days went by....a month went by....seven months went by....finally, I decided that Xee's schedule was just to busy that year. So I made a Smilebox-the easiest solution for me.
By the time I finished my creation, it was Christmas. Since Phoebe's birthday is in May, I never posted it on the blog. I thought it a little anti-climatic. And now, five months has passed since Phoebe's birthday-ALREADY! We are still getting around to assembling some sort of slideshow. It is our tradition afterall. Hey, I don't scrapbook, remember?
In the mean time, I did have a chance to put together a photobook for Phoebe with some of our favorite pics of the year. I wish I could post it here on blogger, but instead I will attach the link for you all to view. It is amazing to see how she grows in the span of one year. Though we are going to be doing this baby thing all over again, my desire to slow things down a bit with Miss Phoebe has not subsided in the least!
Click HERE and enjoy the book :D
By the time I finished my creation, it was Christmas. Since Phoebe's birthday is in May, I never posted it on the blog. I thought it a little anti-climatic. And now, five months has passed since Phoebe's birthday-ALREADY! We are still getting around to assembling some sort of slideshow. It is our tradition afterall. Hey, I don't scrapbook, remember?
In the mean time, I did have a chance to put together a photobook for Phoebe with some of our favorite pics of the year. I wish I could post it here on blogger, but instead I will attach the link for you all to view. It is amazing to see how she grows in the span of one year. Though we are going to be doing this baby thing all over again, my desire to slow things down a bit with Miss Phoebe has not subsided in the least!
Click HERE and enjoy the book :D
October 4, 2010
Where is Audrey?
Where have I been? One of the following...
1. On the phone dealing with home warranty issues for our rental property.
2. Playing on the beach with the Her family.
3. Sleeping-in in the a.m., thanks to the Her family.
4. Trying to back up my laptop since it has been acting funny.
5. Taking my laptop in only to find that the hard drive is completely shot! (before I got to fully back it up...thankfully I backed it up 6 months ago)
6. At the rental property, overseeing the replacement of the dishwasher.
7. On the beach, reading a book and watching three happy little cousins play in the sand :)
8. Back on the phone with the home warranty company....the garage door is now broken.
9. More fun in the sun with cousins and aunties and uncles!
10. Yet again, another issue with the rental property! Termites in the the garage!!!
Okay, so I've been busy.
Be back soon!!
1. On the phone dealing with home warranty issues for our rental property.
2. Playing on the beach with the Her family.
3. Sleeping-in in the a.m., thanks to the Her family.
4. Trying to back up my laptop since it has been acting funny.
5. Taking my laptop in only to find that the hard drive is completely shot! (before I got to fully back it up...thankfully I backed it up 6 months ago)
6. At the rental property, overseeing the replacement of the dishwasher.
7. On the beach, reading a book and watching three happy little cousins play in the sand :)
8. Back on the phone with the home warranty company....the garage door is now broken.
9. More fun in the sun with cousins and aunties and uncles!
10. Yet again, another issue with the rental property! Termites in the the garage!!!
Okay, so I've been busy.
Be back soon!!
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